About Moxie Girl Musings

Moxie Girl Musings is about starting over from square one after tragedy impacted my young family. It's filled with stories of triumph, struggle, snafus, hopes, and dreams. Sometimes there will be features from other writers that I like and every so often I'll include an original short story, but normally I simply write what's on my mind at the time. Welcome to my unfiltered true-life story as I figure out this thing called life. http://www.amberleaeaston.com

Friday, June 5, 2015

Stepping into the Unknown #FlashFiction #ShortStories #FreeRead

Flash-Fiction 
(a very, very short story)
copyright Amber Lea Easton 2015

Stepping into the Unknown  
by 
Amber Lea Easton

Amanda stared at the setting sun bathing the mountains across the valley in various violets and reds. The hues reminded her of a spring garden, alive and vibrant like an illuminated promise. 

But in the end it all whispered to her of broken promises and forgotten tomorrows.  Even the most brilliant of roses goes dormant, stems brittle and breaking.  That’s the thing. That’s the joke. No matter the promise or the beauty or the joy…all of it ends.  

She snapped the breadstick into crumbs without noticing until the dogs rushed to lick up the mess from between her bare feet.

“Hey, sweetie! Are you here? I just needed to drop off these poster boards for you.” A woman stepped through the side gate, all long hair, white teeth and nauseating exuberance.

That’s the thing, too. Always remember to smile. If not a smile, then at least a grin.  Must look agreeable at all times.  Wouldn’t want anyone to think you’re a bitch.  Not at all.  Never. 

Keep pretending. 

“Hi, Karen.  What do you have?”  I wonder if she realizes her once red hair has faded to pale orange. Time for a maintenance trip to the salon, sweetie.

Don't forget to smile. 

“The poster board for the school carnival. I’m glad you could take this on last minute.” Karen plopped the materials onto the table before looking at the mess of crumbs. Although she didn't mention the mess, her disapproving yet somewhat satisfied gleam in her eyes said more than words ever could. 

 “Of course. It’s not like I have a lot going on, right?” She dropped the remnants of the broken breadstick onto the uneaten salad in front of her.  

 “Oh, am I interrupting your dinner? Where’re the kids? It’s awfully quiet around here.” Uninvited, Karen stretched onto the lounge chair next to her and kicked-off her shoes. “Do you have any wine? You wouldn’t believe the day I’ve had…”

Oh, yes, I would.  You have no idea who I really am...you wouldn't believe the thoughts I'm having...thoughts about leaving...permanently. 

 “No, why’s that?” Amanda asked even though she could care less. 

“Oh my god. First Darin refused to sleep through the night and then when he finally decided to give in it was six so of course Danielle was wide awake. Then I had to be at kickboxing at nine and there’s absolutely no way I can afford to miss a class, not with these thighs. Jonathan called from work saying he’d forgotten some blueprints so I had to run them into town. By then, I needed to get Darin to tumble tots and Danielle was late to dance. I don’t know why they call it being a stay-at-home-mom when we’re never home, do you?” Karen finally took a breath and looked into Amanda’s eyes, the kind of look that dances between friendly and resentful. 

The kind of look that makes you guard your back.

God, she was so tired of feeling like every conversation required a military strategy. 

“Sounds rough.” Her gaze slipped toward the sunset. She didn’t want company. A decision needed to be made and it wouldn’t be an easy one.  

“Are you feeling okay? You look kinda…sick.”


“Headache.” Growing worse second by second

“Well, I hope you get the posters done. No matter what people say, your work on the PTO is appreciated. Some people just can’t be satisfied.” 

 “What are people saying exactly?” Damn, I fell for the bait. 

 “Oh, it’s nothing. You shouldn’t care what people say. I mean, what do they really expect from a volunteer?” 

That was the other thing:  innuendo. Karen mastered the art of undermining a person’s confidence like a sculptor chipping away at stone. Pick. Pick. Slam. Amanda tried not to let the words get beneath her skin, but it became more difficult with the passing of time and the persistence of the master sculptor.  

"Karen, if you’ve heard a specific comment about the posters, flyers, whatever I’d rather hear it than—“


“It’s all just…general. You know.”

“I don’t know, that’s why I’m asking.” 

Karen looked at a loss for words, or perhaps more likely she stalled to come up with an appropriate lie to fill in the generalities.  

 “Never mind. I don't really care what anyone's saying. In fact, I may not be able to get to these posters after all.” She stood with the bowl of salad in her hand and a quick glance toward the poster boards. “I think I need some ibuprofen and a long bath.”

 “Oh…well…I should go then…”  Karen fumbled, some of the energy sucked away by the abrupt dismissal. 

 “I think that would be best.” Get the hell out of my house!  

 “Have a nice night of relaxation. Wish I had the time for such luxuries.” Pick, pick, slice, slice—the sculptor chipped away. 

Amanda didn’t watch her leave, unable to maintain the pretense any longer. She pressed her back against the closed patio door and struggled to breathe.  

This wouldn’t be easy, but she’d already planned too much. She needed to end this now before she hurt someone. Seriously, she’d reached the end of her rope. 

She looked at the walls where framed photographs—her photographs—decorated the walls. She’d once been a renowned photographer, traveled the world for publications like National Geographic and Conde Nast. Then David had entered her world like a bigger than life force who swept her into his life—and out of hers.  

Not that she’d ever thought of it like that until she'd woken up one morning--alone as usual--and realized the great love affair had ended a long time ago. 

      When had she become so lonely? 

      There were moments--or were they days?--when she felt as if she existed on auto-pilot. Where had the fire gone that had once blazed hot in her soul? 

Regrets? Yes, she had them. Marriage? No, that wasn’t a regret. Neither were the two kids who snuggled with her every morning and giggled at her silly dancing while she made breakfast.  

It was this so called life--a half life--that now beat at her heart with bitterness. She’d broken a promise to herself, to the young ambitious girl who’d set out to accomplish great things with that camera of hers. Compromise had led her to this place with these women who would never understand her—nor she them. That’s what she regretted--losing herself, abandoning her dreams.    

Words of acquiescence, agreeability, suppression had gotten her here. So easy to get along with, she’d thought they’d say, but she’d been wrong.  

They saw through the false smiles...somehow they knew she pretended to be one of them. The more they chipped, the more pieces of her fell to the floor like crumbs of a breadstick about to be devoured by dogs.  

The last of her identity that she'd stuffed down deep in her heart begged her to act, pleaded with her to do something...anything. 

She knew what she needed to do. 

Hands shaking badly enough that she dropped everything at least once, she packed the car with her suitcases before returning to the house for her napping children. Thank God, she'd worn them out at the pool earlier. They'd sleep for most of the drive. As for David...well, he was off on yet another business trip, living his life with cocktail parties and adult conversations...it would be days before he even noticed his family had left him. 

 Dogs panted, excited to being going on a big adventure as they settled between her sleeping children nestled in their car seats with their favorite stuffed animals. 

This was all she’d take, all she’d want, all she’d need.  

With one last look in the rearview mirror, she marveled at the beauty of the sun outlining the mountains. Beauty meant nothing, however, when it left the heart hollow and lonely.

Uncertainty whispered through her mind for only a minute as she drove from the driveway. Good, bad, right or wrong, she drove toward her life on her own terms. Adrenaline burst through her veins and her heart drummed an exhilarated song of freedom. For the first time in years, she felt...like the Amanda she used to know. She smiled...then laughed. 

The highway stretched in front of her as night crushed twilight--destination unknown but thoroughly anticipated. 

The End





About the author...
Amber Lea Easton is a multi-published author of both fiction and nonfiction. Her memoir, Free Fall, about surviving the suicide of her husband and parenting through grief has been named 4th on the "10 Most Inspiring True Stories Everyone Must Read" list and has also reached international best seller status. She currently resides in the Colorado Rocky Mountains where she gives thanks daily for the view outside her window and the two amazing young adults she's been privileged to raise. Find a listing of all of her books at http://www.amberleaeaston.com 

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    1. Thanks! It's better now that I corrected the typos. I'd copy/pasted from Word and have no idea what happened in the switch over. Ha. :) Thanks for reading it. Flash fiction is something I'm interested in for the sake of a good challenge.

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    2. Experimenting...it's kind of fun to leap out of my comfort zone. :)

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